My daughter recently sent me information on a conference that she thought I might benefit from attending. When I read the syllabus for the two day event, I was scared! I felt intimidated and fearful that it was out of my league. That I was not qualified to attend with others that were clearly more talented. They were gifted, and I was just playing like I was, too.
I can tell you that I told myself that I was just fine carrying on doing my little bit, and there was no need to assume more. That no one was expecting anything from me, so it was perfectly acceptable to just coast. I felt very cowardly because I knew I was giving into my own insecurities.
You have all heard me repeatedly say that we should never give up on our calling, and yet I was doing exactly that. I was listening to voices meant to pull me down, not build me up. Thankfully, this entire struggle was mere moments.
I truthfully want all the the Lord has for me, and I don't want to leave anything on the table. I want to utilize all my gifts, and I know I can expect to be stretched into my calling. To do anything less is running in the wrong direction, a direction that is counter to what I know to be true.
I am a product of a life that has been surrounded by people who have built me up. I am secure because I have heard positive words all my life, and after all these years it would be a mistake to begin listening to voices that are counterfeit to what I believe.
My path is clear. I will register for the conference.
2 Timothy 1:7 NIV For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.